Thursday, 24 June 2010
I was 116 this morning! 1.6lb loss in 2 days isn't too bad. My body feels lighter. When I walk through rooms I almost feel like I'm floating again and it kind of feels magical. That may just be the new dizziness though. I had a skinny latte for breakfast, a 100 cal biscuit for mid-morning, <400 cal pasta for lunch that totally hasn't err digested properly and in the language of the people of the nation of mia that's a negative cal intake, and a 130 cal bag of crisps for mid-afternoon. Less than 700 so far. Some blogs on here recommended reading Diary of an Anorexic Girl by Morgan Menzie. I started it some time ago and never really got into, thinking it unrealistic, inaccurate for most experiences of anorectics and pretty poorly written. The latter may have been because I was reading Dostoyevsky in parallel. Anyway, this week the book came back to me whilst I noticed that a woman where I work has dropped to a BMI of what appears to be 17ish. Maybe lower. She's blaming it on an undiagnosed and probably made-up medical problem. I know that all she lives off is coffee and cigarettes. She's sort of become a point of inspiration for me in my world of girls the same weight or bigger than me. I wouldn't recommend the book to anyone (I found Wasted by Marya Hornbacher to be a much better example of that exhibitionist genre of literature), but finding a real-life point of inspiration certainly seems to be working for me.