I had to have a bit of a break. Things weren't working. I was stressed (and eating very much like an overweight, over-worked and under-fed stressed person) and it all felt so much like failure. I went to see my doctor who told me I had to give my new meds a bit more of a chance before changing again and work got even more stressful.
And then in the past week things have seemingly transformed. I started wearing tight jeans despite the fact I am 117lbs (at least). I got over my weird intimacy thing. My meds seemed to have also kicked in in the last day or two.
I can't help it though, it's still hanging over me. I shouldn't be this size. My ultimate deadline for weight and size is September and this didn't change during my break. I just stopped trying to actively pursue it for a while.
But I'm going to get there. I feel strong. I have a very big pile of size 6 jeans and short shorts that I intend to wear religiously very soon. It's not starting tonight and it might not start tomorrow but by the weekend I will have begun and it will be bloody amazing.
Hope all of you lovelies have been well and staying strong over the past month! I will try and catch up with everyone soon xoxox